During the third week of May I signed up for a job as a writer of test questions for Bright Center. Until now I haven't gotten around to doing it and I'm kinda desperate for inspiration. I know I have to buckle down to doing it because I promised to fast -track it. Bummer.

I could not bring myself to sit in front of my computer and start it. I know that I have to start it but I'm fumbling for ideas. Two hundred questions are all I need. It's hovering somewhere in my brain cells.

I have to do it when I get back home. But I'd watch Babel.I think Babel will win. Hehehe Tomorrow I promise to start. Maybe what I need to do is write down the questions in a notebook. Hopefully, the ideas would flow. I gotta start from scratch. Indeedy.

I'd have to go to the Public Attorney's Office on Monday to get the letter of Atty. Tan so I could mail it to Alvin. I'd have to go to Makati Medical Center and get Green cards for my two sons.Then I'd buy Gerard a pair of pants and a school bag and throw in a couple of notebooks as well .I have to buy Inno a shirt and a pair of shorts.I'd have to enrol Gerard on Tuesday. . For two consecutive days , I'd have to go back to my place to wake up Gerard for his Mind math classes. I'd be running around like a headless chicken. Tomorrow, I'd make an action plan for the whole year for my work in school. It's challenging and I'm a wee bit  nervous. I have plans lined up for the school papers I'm handling.Then there's the practicum I have to finish for the entire semester.I'm not Superwoman. I wish I were. Wishful thinking. I wish I'm Blossom of the Powerpuff Girls  and save the world before  bedtime. (Chuckling). Hehehe More wishful thinking.

I wish I'd be assigned as a school principal  soon.I wish I were loved for who I am and who I will be. This is by far the greatest wish I have for myself. But sometimes I wonder like any normal person --- am I lovable enough? Do I have what it takes to be loved? The seasons are passing by and the prince I am longing for seems eons and eons far away. Perhaps he got stuck in traffic somewhere in Makati.Or worse he was stolen from me by another woman even before he could reach my side.The possibilities are endless. But there are days that I don't doubt that he's just around the bend.I want to be worthy of him. I hope he will be worthy of me.But I will not wait for happiness to alight on my doorstep, even without him I'd be happy.I will be busy and be happily busy as well.I will not put my life on hold. I've been reading M. Scott Peck's the Road Less Travelled and I'm glad that i'm on the right track somehow and that my ideas about love are more or less in consonance with the author.I am right in thinking that our loved ones are separate entities from us and that we should not be clingly for it means selfishness ultimately. The goal of love is for the ultimate development of the person we are cathecting ( a new word I learned), we are to nurture him/her and have a spiritual connection with him/her. I'd be able to explain this more if I finish the whole book.

I'm glad that I was able to write about these things. That means I'm aware of my concerns.But now I have to get  to watching Babel. First things first. Hehehe